Muther/
Thank you/
I need you to know that I don't blame you/
And for the rest/
You did your best/
I've never thought anything less/
Your actions were always what you thought was right/
Took a ring and signed on to a life/
Of fear and threats/
Every other drunken night/
Of beer and debts/
Pain and petty brainless fights/
It's just what we get/
But in the early morning light/
It's all alright/
Cause an "I don't remember" works just as well as an apology/
And to the kids/
Talking to them we just won't bother see/
Please/
Please don't go back to that/


Misguided but you did it for us/
If no one else I know you I could trust/
You stuck it out/
Cause you thought it was best for your children/
We never questioned your intentions/
But please/
Please don't go back to that/
Angels don't lie with rats/
They don't make their beds in the midst of combat/
How can you rest in that?/
I'm exhausted/

I love you/

And that's just not an option to go back to/
I'm not sure I could go through/
Seeing him rip into the drive on a Harley/
Inebriated violent & angry/
Stumble to the door as your family flees/
Breath reeks of greasy biker dick and whiskey/
Enter the house only home out of cruelty/
Home

terrorizing my beautiful mother/
Fists clenched screaming as he stumbles closer/
bash his brains in like he tried to do to my kid brother/
but no no. See I'd charge right into him/ closing up space/
Jam my blade between his ribs and then I'd spit in his face/
(Pause)
but I'm not going to/
cause everyone that knows him knows he sure as hell ain't worth the jail time/
and he's already tried to ruin too many years of mine/
but what the hell is that anyways?/ why do so many young men in my generation fantasize about killing their own fathers/
Have they earned it?/
Do they deserve it?/
Do we just lash out when our world flips?/
Cause I'd rather bleed out in a ditch/ than see your face again you piece of rat (ah)/
And if you end up hearing this/
the only thing I have to say/
is don't you ever think about coming near my family/
I started cutting you off years ago and you were just too foolish and self absorbed to see/
and now I'm finally in a position to sever every single tie/
no father of mine/
and God knows you aren't a man/ cause men don't spend their nights trying to fight women and children/ you don't have the right to ever utter my name again/
you are dead to me/
and for everyone else's sake I hope the alcohol poisoning kills you way sooner than later/